"Tell Me That Things Will Be Okay"

Honestly don’t think this will matter to any of you, but I’ve gotta get this off my chest…. 

There are so many reasons to why I wish I could go back in time and slap myself in the face with a metal chair!! I started thinking about Brad (my crush, who’ve I’ve known since 6th grade) the other day and I believe I made the BIGGEST mistake last year. I’ve liked him since 8th grade, and I kinda had been in denial about it until last year. At winter formal, I kept insisting that he and I should dance —which did work— but I wasn’t sure if he felt the same way as I did. Plus I never saw him much last year. Well, that night was awesome…but some weeks later, I met my freaking ex! When I started dating him, Brad wouldn’t really talk to me much…
UGH!!!!!!! I made such a mistake, didn’t I? I think I might have ruined my chances…
…I did see Brad all this year, and we’ve talked more, so I dunno what that means —and he gave me his number—
So what could this mean? Do I still have a chance?
…Oh Brad, I’m so sorry if I hurt you…