"Tell Me That Things Will Be Okay"

I’m still so confused about my crush. I can’t understand what he’s trying to do. He teases me a lot, and I’ve heard that’s a sign that a guy likes you, but I dunno… I always feel like I annoy the heck out of him, but I guess I must not because why else does he still put up with me?

Ahhhhh! It’s times like these that I wish I meet someone else, and see if my crush is even worth it!

My mom has major problems…

Not too long ago, she was telling me stuff like, “Don’t fall for someone that treats you bad; he has to treat you right and have respect for you. And you know you’re not going to get some ‘rocker,’ so dont even think about it” and blah blah blah.

Then, a few weeks ago, she was all, “when you find a guy, you should find someone who’s a Christian and is attractive, because you’re beautiful.”

And then today, i post something on Facebook about how I’m different than some other girls, and that I always want to see others smile (especially whenever I have a boyfriend) no matter what. So, she comments on it saying, “That’s cause no guy deserves you, beautiful! I’m not kidding when i said no man/ guy is good enough for you.”

Are you kidding me?! So, basically she wants me to be alone forever?? Can she at least give them a chance? Okay, so my ex was not attractive, BUT HE WAS JUST MY FIRST BOYFRIEND!! Does she think that I’m going to find someone like him again? Well, I’m NOT; I’ve learned from my mistakes, woman. I’ll find someone, somewhere, that will make her change her mind.

It’s times like these that I don’t like that I’m “pretty,” “gorgeous,” “beautiful,” or anything!

It’s my freaking gift and curse!!